December 21

So here I am. Panasit told me to make a blog, and while I'll probably ignore this most often since I never have time to just sit and write it's started just the same.

Yesterday was my fauxtographer final, I don't think my portfolio was as good as it could have been. I should have concentrated more. Before I was lacking in ideas, but now I have tons... Of course. Atleast it's over, and I didn't keel over from an ulcer like I had predicted. Christmas is vastly approaching and I'm feeling rather lackluster about it. Yay for the presents and all of course, but it just hasn't been the same for years.

Dad's in surgery today, he has skin cancer on his face and they're removing it and grafting a piece of skin from behind his ear to fix it. Atleast it's not his heart... Speaking of which mine is well I don't know what mine is. I'm having a ton of fears right now about a potential relationship. I don't know what's going on, but I'm afraid I'm making some of it up in me head. Like taking things more then they really are. I just want a guy who wants me and of course will not be a dick. I don't think he'll be a dick but I'm not sure if he really wants me of If I'm just somewhat of a convenience for that matter. Urgh too much to think about and vent, must go back to work!