Is it a new Episode of Lost tonight?
So here I am again with plenty to bitch about...
Well first (and this is not bitching its musing) We (Jen and I) saw Gwar lastnight. Aside from the Metro being a bunghole making us leave early it was AWESOME!!! I'm completely inspired to go make more art. The band/ production company are from Richmond, I wanna email them with questions or job inquiries... It's not Wingnut Productions but its a foot in the door! I wanna ask Dad if I can clear out a space in the basement to start a studio, since he's depressed right now, I bet the vein in his forehead is less likely to pop when I ask him. I mean come one the man was just like, "It happens" when I told him I hit a deer lastweek.
Next, I'm furious with my Grandfather. When Grammy died last October you know that whole fight thing went down between Mum and Uncle about her possessions and I know Pappy feels bad about how it turned out, he knows it was wrong. Well since then he wont call and talk to my Mum, and then he moved himself down to Florida atleast for the winter season without letting any of us know. He occasionally talks to my brother and has asked him to have me give him a call totally trying to end run my Mum. I'm so angry right now but if I call and yell at him it might push him further away, but here is what I would say to him now....
Pappy SHAME ON YOU!!! Mum, as hard as it was for her has set out an olive branch for you but you are so wrapped in guilt for what happened and can't get past it that it's making things 10 times worst. No one until this point has used the "real Dad" card but I'm going to use it right now!!! You are the only Grandfather I've ever known and Mum calls you Dad... Not Joe ( she use to but not anymore.) Right now you deserve the name Joe not Pappy, not Dad because a real father wouldn't run away when his children where hurting. Even if in some way you caused the pain, the pain is much greater now for us. For Mum who seems to have lost all her parents now and for me because I've lost both my Grandparents. The Pappy I once knew wouldn't let this come between us and loved us but the Joe now just loves himself. This may be Joe's way of dealing with his great loss but Joe isn't the only one who lost someone. FUCK YOU!!!!
Well first (and this is not bitching its musing) We (Jen and I) saw Gwar lastnight. Aside from the Metro being a bunghole making us leave early it was AWESOME!!! I'm completely inspired to go make more art. The band/ production company are from Richmond, I wanna email them with questions or job inquiries... It's not Wingnut Productions but its a foot in the door! I wanna ask Dad if I can clear out a space in the basement to start a studio, since he's depressed right now, I bet the vein in his forehead is less likely to pop when I ask him. I mean come one the man was just like, "It happens" when I told him I hit a deer lastweek.
Next, I'm furious with my Grandfather. When Grammy died last October you know that whole fight thing went down between Mum and Uncle about her possessions and I know Pappy feels bad about how it turned out, he knows it was wrong. Well since then he wont call and talk to my Mum, and then he moved himself down to Florida atleast for the winter season without letting any of us know. He occasionally talks to my brother and has asked him to have me give him a call totally trying to end run my Mum. I'm so angry right now but if I call and yell at him it might push him further away, but here is what I would say to him now....
Pappy SHAME ON YOU!!! Mum, as hard as it was for her has set out an olive branch for you but you are so wrapped in guilt for what happened and can't get past it that it's making things 10 times worst. No one until this point has used the "real Dad" card but I'm going to use it right now!!! You are the only Grandfather I've ever known and Mum calls you Dad... Not Joe ( she use to but not anymore.) Right now you deserve the name Joe not Pappy, not Dad because a real father wouldn't run away when his children where hurting. Even if in some way you caused the pain, the pain is much greater now for us. For Mum who seems to have lost all her parents now and for me because I've lost both my Grandparents. The Pappy I once knew wouldn't let this come between us and loved us but the Joe now just loves himself. This may be Joe's way of dealing with his great loss but Joe isn't the only one who lost someone. FUCK YOU!!!!
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4:45 PM
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